Will We or Won't We??

Okay, now we are in the stage where I think about all of the things that need to happen if we are actually going to do this and freak out.  Not only the things to go, but also all the issues for when we move back, you know like jobs, shelter, transportation.  It is all very overwhelming.  We still haven’t heard back from my husband’s potential employer since the first email, so I am starting to think that everything is falling apart while my husband is feeling more at peace about the whole thing.  I think that we should base things on his feelings because I have the tendency to be over cautious and shall we say neurotic.  At this point in the journey we just sit back and see if things are going to come together (I love it when a plan comes together) or not.  If you haven’t guessed, I am not very good at the sitting around game.  I like to plan, organize, and be completely in control, but we are too far away from the actual move to really do much.  I make myself feel useful by looking at apartments that realistically won’t be available when we are ready to move, but it makes me feel like I have some control over things and, let’s face it, a false sense of control is better than none at all.